When I was young, I was a bastard, and I loved it. I barreled through life often with disdain for others, selfishly seeking my own pleasure and desires. I enjoyed being arrogant, I hated being wrong. I looked out for only me, ignorant, self absorbed and shameless.

This little verse deals with that self-concern. I believe one must focus on oneself, but not like I, and many others, did it. There is another way. Sometimes I glimpse it before it disappears into the recesses of my mind, and my mind is cloudy, with a chance of bullshit. There is much to obscure this desire I have to know myself! I will continue on this path of self-discovery, and if nothing else at least enjoy the scenic memories along the way.

Since we first met you have been installed in my head.
I see you everywhere, in the sky and even when asleep in bed.
I cannot imagine life without you in it, you have total access without limit,
I am yours completely and wholly because not allowing it will be foley!

Yet for five decades I managed to push you from my thoughts,
and only focused on giving my body all what it sought.
Then one day there you were again, still beautiful and kind,
leaving me speechless, stunned and momentarily maligned.

I neglected you for so long trying to make myself strong,
god, how humbling it is to realize I was terribly wrong!
Forgive me my ignorance, delusion and selfish neglect,
I beg you my soul, my self, forgive me my disrespect.

I promise to care and start living only for you, 
the self, and to my mind I promise to be kind!
From this day forward I will care for you dear half, 
and have concern for body, mind, soul and ourself!

Only when I learn to love ourself with proclivity,
will I be able to love another unconditionally.
This I will do, 
for me and you,
and her!